Living on Coffee and Love

It's the witching hour...really. It's 430am on Halloween. I'm at work. And, it's the hardest hour of the night. I came into work with loads of energy and at this very moment, it's all been zapped. I've tried eating and drinking, to no avail. I'm wondering what a madhouse Franklin street and traffic is going to be tonight when I have to come in to work. I'm hoping it'll be smooth sailing! Let's talk about how cute Seth is when he looks up at the animals over his swing and smiles and coos. I probably took 15 pictures of him smiling today at them. And, it's a little unreal. I keep telling myself it's the Jay in him. Jay's nickname was "Beamer" because that's just how he has been from the get go. Is get go a word? Getgo. Get-go Get go. Who knows. Enjoy the pictures. I've posted one of me holding Seth in my "sheet sling." Another is of us getting the peppermint mocha baby shakes at Chickfila. SSoooo good! PYe. ...

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As you can tell, I'm a little better about uploading pictures than I am about actually blogging. I think this deserves a little bit of explanation on my part. I can upload pictures directly from my blackberry to the blogsite. I can also blog by email (from my blackberry) but that takes too long :0) So, I upload pics that are darling and forget to (or don't get the time to) actually blog :( So, when I come to work, I usually have time to blog and update everyone about my life. That's my apology for not writing much throughout the week. Let's see. We haven't done ANYTHING yet for Halloween. We've managed to put up a Halloween sign on the door and the garage door. Other than that, we haven't done anything. We haven't gotten Parker a costume yet. Seth, of course will be a pumpkin (just like Parker was :) and we're thinking that Parker will want to be Thomas the Tank Engine. Thomas is the apple of his eye right now. I'm thinking we'll be getting ...

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I was web surfing tonight and got a chance to look on the life is good website...y'all know how much I LOOOVE that stuff! They have an area on their website where people have written in to them to tell them how Life is Good has impacted their lives. Can I tell you, I had tears running down my cheeks? Now, I know I'm a sap but there were stories on there that really truly touched my heart! Perhaps the most memorable one was the guy that wrote in about his grandmother. The Christmas before she died, she sent life is good stickers in all of her children's Christmas cards. She died a month later or something...in January. So, at her funeral, the guy handed out 200 life is good stickers to everyone at the service. Now, doesn't that tear you up?! I love this. I would hope that someone would do that at my funeral. Life goes on, and it's GOOD. There were also stories of soldiers in Iraq that have had life is good stuff sent to them and it reminds them of home and keeps them...

As you can tell by the pictures below, Parker Jay LOVES being outside. We've been trying to teach him how to pedal on his red tricycle. Um, he has the hang of it, going DOWNHILL but doesn't seem to be quite strong enough to pedal himself on a flat ground. He seems to be developing his daredevil skills, because he really likes to turn around and go down the same hilly spots and get going fast. I can already tell we have a little Bam Margera on our hands. The faster, the better...well, I think he has that honest! When he starts waking us up doing firecrackers in the house at 2am, I guess we'll have to have a discussion. For the time being, I guess I'm okay with him going super fast and getting a thrill out of it. I mean, that's living right? He knows daddy is there to catch him at the end of the incline and grins ear to ear. It's adorable. The other night, we went and got him up at like 2am and let him sleep with us in the middle of the bed all snuggled up and war...

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Let's blog about how much I love fall can we? This morning I was leaving work, walking out to my car and as soon as the doors opened and the chill hit me, it felt real finally. Fall. Oh, my favorite. The sky was still grey and dark since it was about 730....and oh...I just took a deep breath and cherished it. I love this time of year when there's a chill in the air and the crunch of fallen leaves make music under my tired feet. There's something rejuvinating and refreshing about it. The State Fair will be here, pumpkins will start popping up on porches, funny looking gourds will be out, and if you try hard enough, you can just smell fresh baked pumpkin pie, you can feel the wet seeds in your fingers and think of how gross those pumpkin seeds feel inside the pumpkin. Everyone will be eating their Halloween candy before halloween and picking out costumes for the kids. By November, you'll be sick of the site of candy corn and remember the tummy ache you had from them. If y...

So, things are hunky dory! I was driving on my way to work today thinking about what a rich woman I am. Rich in the fact that I have a car, a roof, a wonderful lifemate/soulmate/friend/husband, 2 healthy and happy boys, a job, and a positive outlook on life. There are so many people, people that I'm sure you know...who wake up, drag theirselves into work, and never crack a smile. How? I feel sorry for those folks because I think back to how rich I am and think that they must have nothing. I guess I would feel like they do if I was missing any of the parts to my life. I would feel empty in some way. That's the only rationale that I have for these people who walk around with the weight of the world on their shoulders. I can only imagine what stress THEY must be under. I mean, I feel that my life is WAAAY too stressful. But, to have it reflected so much on the outside must be horrible, you know? It's the meditation in my heart that I never have to know what it feels like to wa...

I'm back tonight at work for my second week :( Not doing so bad, I guess the good news is that we all made it through the week and we haven't killed anyone or each other yet :) Sleep is getting harder to come by with mister Parker in the house throughout the week and we just keep thinking that once Sethie is sleeping through the night, we'll be golden! My breastmilk volume took a nosedive this week and Jay seems to think it's because I'm not drinking enough fluids...I think it's a combo of a lot of things...probably not drinking enough, not sleeping enough, only breastpumping (not doing any breastfeeding), and burning my candle at all ends. The good news, is that today before leaving for work, I breastfed Seth and he LOVED it, and I had to use a nipple shield because he still wants to BITE with his gums! But, we both did well and tonight when I pumped here at work, I had 2 oz more than I've been having. So, I think I'm just going to try to start exclusiv...

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Alright. So, here's the deal. I'm bored at work. I have a thirst for knowledge and learning and ....right now, it's all totally self-driven. I'm not being stimulated or learning anything. I'm really needing a challenge and a drive at work. I'm crazy right? Just had another baby, I have a toddler at home, and I'm looking for a challenge?? That's just me. I never take an easy path, really. The job that I have right now, it's easy. It's quiet. It's almost mindless, really. The patients are all the same with the exception of their social situation. And, no offense but I think I'm better than this. I'm ready to step it up. I've been a registered nurse for 4 years and it's time for me to have a career and not just a job. I want long-term goals and self-satisfaction. Just being a "registered nurse" isn't enough for me anymore. I've always wanted to fly. But, I'm worried about the skills. I want the training; the...

Well, tonight is my first night back at work :( I'm staying busy so haven't really been able to think about the actuality of it all. I must say that when I got in the car and started driving away from home I had the strangest feeling...and I don't know quite how to describe it. I guess it's because it was the first time I was really separated from Sethie since he's been born. And, it felt like I was leaving a piece of myself behind. I realize that literally, I was leaving a part of myself behind. However, that's not what I mean. I wonder if other moms feel this way and could perhaps explain it better. It's bizarre. I mean, for almost 10 months he was inside of me, growing and having hiccups and punching me. Since his birth, he has woke us up every 3 hours to feed and in between for dirty diapers. And, I just got in the car and came to work. So strange. He is there with Jay and I am here at work. I think I mourned a little on the way to work because for the 1...

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