I'm still here folks!

Hi you guys!! It's been so long since I've written. Literally, I think that it's been months and months...we had just found out that we were pregnant with twins!! Well, now we will find out on Monday if they are boys or girls or BOTH! What does my gut tell me? My gut tells me that they are going to be PRECIOUS. Haha, okay, fair enough. I think there is going to be 1 boy and 1 girl. That's really what I feel. I can't imagine that there would be 2 more boys in there. What are the odds of that? ALL boys? So, I'm counting on those odds. Really though, I'm concerned about their little bodies in there. I find myself worrying like most mom's do. I just have 2 sweet and healthy baby boys already and I just hope hope hope they are healthy. That's really what I want. I've been working my tailpipe off. I do 16 hour shifts now Saturday and Sunday at the nursing home. I've been there since the end of August and it's really exhausting. I try to tell myself that it's only 2 nights a week but then I still pick up a 8 hour shift in the middle somewhere. I am presently (gasp again) looking for something else. Something that is more healthy for the babies. I can only imagine how my ankles are going to look in a few months. And, yes I thought about it but didn't realize I'd be on my feet practically the ENTIRE time. And, I didn't honestly think about the exhaustion of doing night shift alone. So, I'm looking at case management stuff. We'll see. I'm ready for a career. I'm tired of having job after job, you know? I mean, I'm thankful and blessed to have a job. Period. I'm blessed. But, I think I can do better and have a more fulfilling and enjoyable career.
I'm looking forward to being able to SHOP for a few things and find hopefully a pink thing or two. We haven't bought 1 thing. NOTHING. We are waiting to see what's in there cooking. Then, lookout, I might just go crazy!!!!


I'm looking forward to updating you guys and letting you know what the Delio is.
We have pretty much decided on the names Katie and Megan if they are 2 girls.
Some of the boy names we have in the running are....
Ryan, Jacob, Logan, Van, and Max


I'll keep you posted!!!!
Love yuns!
Kimmie

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