Haha at myself

So, let's talk about what I've eaten the last few nights @ work. NOT bad...but, not exactly the DREW CAREY diet I mentioned in Friday night's post :) Schnick schnick.
Green beans (both nights) and  tonight I have rice with the green beans. I've had coffee both nights and tonight I felt a little frisky so got a big cup of Diet Mtn. Dew. The other nights I have drank water when I usually get Diet Mtn. Dew. Something must be done here. Oh yeah, and I had a pack of cheese on wheat nabs and a fiberone bar.

One of my collegues lastnight told me that if I really truly wanted to fly...I had to stop waiting for the opportunity to come to me and I had to start doing a better job of seeking it out. Meaning, I really need to be more proactive about looking for a critical care job with drips and titrations and crazyness. I wish that I could afford to take the cut in pay and work nights during the week. Then, I could take the MICU job that just opened and I'd be set. I'd definitely be able to work there for a few years and FLY. So, I'm having to be patient. It seems that patience is the one virtue that I have not really truly grasped yet. I mean, I seem to be continually tested where patience is concerned. Whether it's job related or related to other aspects of life. I struggle to just "be still" and "know." But, my middle name is FAITH. It's what I do. Maybe it should have been Patience--ha. I know and truly believe and appreciate the experiences that I have with each and every patient that I take care of. But, I'm ready for my mind to be blown. I'm ready to learn. I'm ready to save. I'm ready to feel like I'm headed in the right direction.

It's Sunday night at work...well, now it's Monday morning. This means that it's the start of another week OFF for me. This means that I will try to find time to relax my mind and spirit and be filled with the joy of my children's smiles and laughter. And, be nurtured by my husband's love. How I love Monday mornings. I hope that it's dreary and drizzly when I leave this morning. I'd love to take a morning walk with my boys along the greenway and exercise. Nothing brisk..but pleasurable.

I must stay positive and follow the "secret of life"--I must have faith that it's gonna happen for me. That things will come just as they should. Everything always works out in the end anyways. I need to eat,sleep, and dream critical care right now. I pray that the opportunity comes soon. I pray that I will be surrounded by mentors and resources, and friends and coworkers who will take me under their wings and teach me everything that they know. I know and believe TRULY that I am capable of wonderful, life-changing and life-saving things. I pray for the opportunity.

Happy Monday friends!!!
~Kimmie